November 2009
36 posts
Im sorry♥
beautiful-lies:
I donno if this is because im selfish of clueless or just don’t deserve to be happy. I don’t know why the person who is meant to want the best from me seems to like me best when im sad. I don’t know why she seems to hate me when im happy. I love her to pieces and the thought of her wishing me away is unbarable. Everything i say is wrong. Everything i do is wrong. She doesnt tell...
ever just have a bad day?? you’re feeling bitchy or sad, but there is no reason. or those days where you feel lonely, but you’re with your closest friends?? i had one of those days today. i hate it because everyone gets mad at you and you can’t even supply an explanation for your… confusing attitude. today was a day just to stay in bed, curled up in the fetal position,...
christmas wishlist in process(: -a light bright -a sumo wrestler costume
i hate this stupid firefly song):<
so sarah and i tend to have this curse, where we are never happy at the same time. sure we can be depressed at the same time, and our bitch days always clash, but we can never be truly walking on happy line together. i am currently neither happy or sad or bitchy or anything. i am simpley meh. it sound like a horrible adjective, but it has promise that a real one will come along soon. anyways, on...
watching the terminal(: looove tom hanks
so i’m craving a cupcake. but as i am waaay to lazy to macke some, i will just have too post millions of pictures on tumblr. (:
my dog is a cat.
sarah is mad at me again. and i am mad at myself because i let her. sarah has always been the type to believe that it is okay to be a bit bitchy and she never expects any bitchiness in return. i guess lately i have gotten so much shit from my dad that i didn’t think i needed any of it from my best friend. i hate that she doesn’t have a cell phone because i have to wait an entire day to apologize....
i think i’d like to go talk to a shrink. i don’t have a particular reason other than the simple curiosity of what they might find “wrong” with me. i think a shrink would like me, as i am extremely opinionated although i really don’t know that much. in that way i am very much like a shrink, we are both excellent at pretending we know exactly what we’re talking about.
my sister thinks that grades are the most important thing in life. my best friend thinks it is perfectly okay to act a little bitchy and expect no bitchiness in return. my dad is extremely old fashioned in his belief that respect for adults comes before everything. my point is that everyone thinks differently. which is why it drives me absolutely insane when a parent tells me “i was a kid...
so i’m pretty sure she has finally discovered that i am indeed a horrible person.
the ups of staying home from school sick: -no school obviously:P -watching ellen, stupid soaps and infomercials aaaaaaall day long -cuddling with aero -layin on the couch in my jim-jams without moving for as long as i want -eating raw kd directly from the box -swallowing as much cold medicine as i want, resulting in… well becoming pretty much stoned -having all of your friends feel...
October 2009
37 posts
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so last night i fucked up. somehow i managed to delete a whole bunch of pictures. as it is my mom’s laptop i was absolutely freaking. that is until she told me she had everything saved on another hardrive thingy. so it was just my photos that got deleted. which wasn’t a big deal either because everything is already on facebook. the only thing i actually give a fuck about are my tumblr...
about me: -my name is carly, i prefer people to call me car though. i think it’s because with close friends, you tend to you short forms with eachother. so hearing it from everyone makes me feal like we are all close(: -i absolutely love green tea with honey, although i do enjoy any tea. but for some reason i only like drinking it with a spoon. so, i keep a bent spoon in my purse for random...
so the end of the completely and utterly pointless week long tiring and draining emotional drama fest has ended… ish. yesterday sarah talked to both connor and amber. amber had no idea about the whole thing and connor really didn’t say much at all. turns out joel might have something to do with it. i texted connor last night to basically ask him, what the fuck is going on. he said he...
morninggg, i have finally managed to get up and shower before 7:10am. usually by that point in the morning, all hope in getting ready for school on time is shattered. however this morning i can somehow afford to just chill and do nadda for the last twenty minutes. anyways, i’m feeling a lot better this morning. still kinda depressed (wednesday connor didn’t text me all day, i knew...
watching the spice girls movie in my bedroom, recently painted pink this year. i reached in my dresser drawer to cut open a difficult bag of chips. and try as i may the thin, stubborn plastic wouldn’t cut. i looked at my scissors, my previous cutting scissors. i remembered how well they used to do there job of cutting flesh and not they can’t even tackle a chip bag. perhaps this is a...
took paiges bus afterschool last night. we started walking toward the doors, when from out left came a bolting thingy-ma-doohicker-person who appeared very purple. it was of course sarah, sporting her knee length suede (or as she purnounces it, swed) boots and purple and grey hobo mittens. both of which were “gifts” from paigey and myself. right behind her was dear connor. i was...